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/7:42 PM

Today was tap mock....
i screwed mine up!!!
then miss deans said i need to practice alot..sth like i need to be consitent throughout the whole dance.....ARGH!!
okay..thats not the bad part..
then i went for my dental appointment
then i went to buy a drink
then i went with my father back to scgs cause he needed to do sth..
then i saw ranita...said hi...then started talkingto her
then i saw liane..so started talking too
talk and talk n talk..
then her grandma came in her BMW
then ranita's father came
then i was alone
then ranita walked back
then we started talking again
then a BAD BAD BAD BAD thing happened


Mrs Chan came..she called me..i thot wad happened...
then i went there
then guess wad
she started scolding me
ARGH
just because noone went for tap....
okay she scolded andrea too at TAKA cold storage..that was rather comical....
but she said many things to me..actually i didnt bother listening
i just kept starring somewhere else..
like DAMN DAMN embarrassing lar!!WTH
she was like i noe you're not that kind of girl
she also said that to andrea... -______-
then blah blah blah....then she was like think bout wad i said.
again she also said that to anddrea... -_____-
WTH!!!WTH
anw i said sorry...then miss chrystelle came out...then she was like
stephanie, you noe you're not the best..
you need more practice and you still missed practice..your parents
paid alot for this class
you're disspointing them by skipping
If you dun come next week..then you can't take them exam anymore..
i dun care if you dun get back your money or not...
WTH WTH WTH
i got seminar next week okay!!!! how to go!!!
damn't
ARGH
then at that moment i was like thinking...kick then kick lar!!!
i transfer school next yr then i no need see you black face....then i was like sorry...
then i told her i may not be the best..but i am trying hard...then she kept quiet
then i said sorry again
then the end lor..
then i wanted to walk away...mrs chan started talking again
she was like
you surely don't want me to tell your mum rite..shell be very dissapointed in you...i wa slike WTH!!! my father knew i was ponning cause noone was going lar!!!! ARGH..
like wad she did to andrea..she was like THINKING that we pon!!we didnt lar!!!piss me off...so unreasonable....
then my father came
mrs chan started talking
BLAH BLAH BLAH
my father just agreed with her with everything
but when we left...my father was laughing lar..laughing at me getting scolded!!
so weird lar,,
hahhaha
so i just laughed with it lor..
then when i went hm...
then when i went home
i looked at my theory n my tap shoes
i threw it on the floor
i started to cry to myself..not out but in
i looked at it
i told myself
NONONONO
nothing!!!i cannot excel in anything!!then i thot ad ms deans said...
i thot to myself
kicking me out of exams...they would be making the right choice
i dont deserve it....i lost my confidence entirely....
i dunno y
i thot bout my ballet..and i said nope that is out..i cannot excel in that...
i am not even notice
samantha is even better than me...yueru too meishaan too rachel too...everyone...i always took minyi as my role model in dance...eryn as the overall person...erika as the tap dancer...
then i wa slike i watched them..i admire them
but how much i like them dancing..
ill still be at the bottom
if anyone reading this..dun try consoling me
it wouldnt help
not at all
ill just say thnks here...
exam is near
if i get pulled out....i wont feel bad..but my mum will
ill be disappointing my mum and dad
i got to try my very best
but i don't haf the courage to pull myself up
neither do i haf the confidence...
lemme just melt and fade away...

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Stephanie Leong
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